I don't give a damn! I'm as happy as a clam. :)

this is how i've been feeling

wonderland

hahaha

new dave album is amazing by the way

It holds you tight, between these lines, it holds you tight

wishing

this is my life, always

i love cupcakes

this is my dream

and in the daylight we can hitchhike to maine
i hope that someday i’ll see without these frames
and in the daylight i don’t pick up my phone
cause in the daylight anywhere feels like home

on another note, I've been enjoying the rainy weather

i want to be a florist

I know I dreamed you a sin and a lie
I have my freedom but I don't have much time
Faith has been broken, tears must be cried
Let's do some living after we die

perfect song for the end of the day

perfection or what?

someday i will learn to grow flowers

i think i'm gonna make this blog into just pictures that i find that i like. maybe a few words here and there, cause i know no one wants to hear my blabbering

I like starting the day off with a good deed. I hope it makes for the entire day to be blissful.

i am SO TIRED of being stressed out all the time over every little thing. i'm drained from living. this routine i'm stuck in has got to change. i can't figure out how to do it, but it must be done. i'm frustrated that i am separated by a thousand miles from the only person in the world i want to be with

this is perfect

changes

I've learned a lot lately. I'm happy with my life but always making minor changes- for the better, of course. Not much to say except I like when I have good eyelash days.

I just watched the cutest movie, The Cake Eaters. I cried like 12 times even though it wasn't sad, really. This weekend is going to be great. Tonight Chelsey, Crystal, Gemini, Brian, and I went to some ghetto ass party and danced. It was fun while it lasted. Tomorrow is Chelsey's birthday party! We are having an Andy Warhol factory party! The house is decorated and it looks awesome. I bought a dress from the dollar store and it's cute as hell. Tomorrow we are getting our new couch and I cannooootttttt wait! Sunday we are going to see Third Eye Blind and that's going to be amazing. Monday is Chelsey's birthday, hopefully I can get out of going to work.. I'm so tired of my routine life

emotion

I woke up today thinking that it is Charlotte's birthday. If it is, I'm not sure, but it should be.
I'm constantly worrying about the future. I don't know what I want to do or where I want to go. I know many people feel this way, but it scares me. I wish I knew what I was good at and what I am interested in. My life is routine. I can't get away from it. I want time to figure out who I am. I want time for me.
If I had any courage, I would get in my car and drive somewhere far away and never come back. I don't want to run from my problems, but I want change. My whole life is just repetition. It's hard to find something I enjoy doing, which is sad to say. I'm just never satisfied. Whatever my problem is, I wish it was easily able to be solved. I find myself in a constant state of melancholy and disinterest.
I don't understand it at all. I have a great life. I have friends and family that love me, but that isn't where my problem lies. It's with me. I don't know how to find my own way or guide myself to where I'd like to be. All I can say is that I am drained physically and emotionally. I want to get out of this rut I am stuck in, but how? I see all of my friends aspiring their careers, knowing exactly what they want and how to get there, and I'm so jealous. I put forth so much effort into my day-to-day but it seem as if it does absolutely nothing. I can't even force myself to have fun.

I don't know what or where my place in the world is. It's not that I am depressed or anything, I just feel like I'm not where I need to be at this point in my life. I need guidance, but I have nowhere to turn for it.

Happy (maybe) birthday, Charlotte. You will be the death of me, you crazy ass cat. I'm not sure where you're at right now, but I'm sure you're thinking up some kind of plot to destroy the world. I want to start a new chapter in my life. I need some sort of change. I spend all of my time worrying about others that I don't take care of myself.
I'm also unsure what I'm doing with this blog. I guess I need some emotionless thing to spill my heart into.